R-E-S-P-E-C-T

For months, I've been thinking about respect and how important it is in any friendship, family relationship, or romantic relationship.

This week that point came to mind again and again after a few encounters with guys.

There is one that I've been trying to gain some sort of respect for lately, but he's so immature that I don't think I even want to talk to him anymore. It's truly annoying to have to wonder what game he's playing and whether he can stop with the dirty jokes for more than 5 minutes. Something that really turns me off is a guy who I can't take seriously. He's fun for a while, but then I get pissed off. Bad sign.

Another guy asked me out on a date. He is the same one who last semester made horrible comments about women in my presence until I had to ask him to stop. How am I supposed to respect a guy who thinks that hot women are only good for fucking and being the administrative tool at work? Points for telling me that I looked hot in my skirt suit, but I could never date a guy who has no respect for my intellect.

Then there is the asshole that called me at 2am during the week. What the hell was he thinking?!?!? I used to get mad because my mom wouldn't allow me to call anyone after 9pm, but now I see her point. Guys need to learn to respect that I need my sleep. Leave me the hell alone when it's time for bed.

Damn it. This post sucks. I'm just mad because I'm realizing that there is only one guy in my life that I truly and deeply respect, and I wouldn't date him nor would he date me. We're much too smart to fuck up the best friendship we have in our lives. Where are all the good guys that I know must exist? And how can I start respecting guys?

On a positive note: The complete and utter lack of respect that I had for my parents last year has completely changed into admiration and love for them, after they finally realized to respect me and my decisions. So now I just have to find the same thing with a guy so I can fall in love again and live happily ever after. *sigh* I'm so naive that it's cute, isn't it? :)

Not sure if I'll have time to post again this week. Maybe I'll vent about the inefficacies of organizations around here. What the hell do people care about anyway? Seems like there's nothing important going on in the world right now. It's all about finding a job and keeping from drowning. Why'd I sign up for this shit? Oh yeah. . . so I can get a JD and go back to my beloved Academic Technology. . .

Ps-I have to admit that there is one guy that I give credit to for being extremely respectful. Not only does he always pick me up, but he also understands my time with family comes first and that my life is incredibly busy. I probably like him because he's not obsessed with me. I really hate those guys that want to talk every single day. What's up with that?

Ok. Enough of wasting our time.